Tales from the Clan Ralley

Well I am not really sure how to write exactly what I am thinking right now but here it goes anyway. I find myself in complete frustration sometimes and it is not always clear exactly what to do, or say, or even think. Yesterday was a nightmare, and it really put a damper on my spirits. Last night started just like any other ordinary and uneventful night in Chirpan. I got a call from my friend XXXXX and he said that he wanted to meet up at the usual bar for a couple drinks. At this point I am sitting in my room, bored out of my mind, dreaming about central heating. So I say why not, I will meet you there. I had been sitting in my house the whole day, and had no objection to taking a break from my hermit lifestyle. I then walked down to the local café and met with XXXXX, his girlfriend, and a group of about 5 other guys. The beginning of the evening was very typical and pleasant. I was enjoying my 60 cent gin and tonic, and answering the usual questions. (‘What do you think of your president?’ ‘Do you like Bulgaria?’ ‘Why are you here?’ ECT). Then all of a sudden, and completely out of the blue, the guy sitting on my right changed the subject and blew my mind. The oafish, rocker type guy asked me what I thought about Hitler. Well I am sure you’re thinking…WTF..what kind of question is that….umm yeah… I wasn’t really prepared for that one. But it gets better… after I gave him the typical ‘Hitler was a monster’ response. He proceeded to tell me how Hitler was a great man, and how he believed in all his ideas about racial purity ect.. After the conversations got rolling, the other guys at the table started talking about how Jews, blacks, Roma and so on, are social parasites that are less than human. I tried to explain to these people how I felt, but they didn’t want to listen. I did my best to explain to them that it’s an issue of poverty, discrimination, and destructive negative stereotypes. Needless to say, by this point I am very shocked and frustrated with the situation. My friend XXXXX notices that I am appalled by what is being said, and quickly apologizes for the other guys and tells me that they are drunk. I said that I just don’t understand why they think the way they do. I told XXXXX that speaking of what Hitler has done ‘as good’, is wrong and completely unacceptable, especially where I am from. Obviously at this point the evening was in a fast and painful downward spiral. I thought to myself, ‘these people are just idiots’, and its not XXXXX’s fault that these people are anti-Semitic bigots. To my shock and dismay, XXXXX responded by telling me that he feels the same way about Hitler, and that he hates Jews because they are parasites. Well that was enough for me, the one person at the table whom I thought would see through the bullshit and understand that the other guys are wrong, tells me that he is narrow minded as well. Well the moral of the story……. I have no idea. What I am going to do……. I have no Idea. How I am going to go about finding decent friends…….. beats me.
This was the first time I have ever felt so angry about close-minded people. I felt ganged up on and helpless. My language skills hindered my ability to debate, and made it difficult to explain exactly how I feel. It was absolutely frustrating, and I felt very ashamed to be around these types of people.
Well I am sorry that this blog entry is written so poorly and has such a negative tone to it. It’s just my way of venting I Suppose, so enough of my bantering……………………….OVER AND OUT